This is an unusual post for me and I am not completely sure whether this is the right place to put it, but it feels right for now. As most people know, I am in a long distance relationship. I am also quite rubbish at putting my own needs forwards. Add on to that the challenges of finding time where we are both available to talk and it isn’t difficult to see how I find some things hard.
I need to talk.
I need to talk as the thoughts and feelings occur to me.
I need to talk when the feelings are there and I know why it is important.
I need to talk.
I have to wait.
I have to wait until the time is convenient.
I have to wait until everything else is done.
I have to wait until the feelings have faded and the urgency gone.
I have to wait until I need to remember why I needed to talk.
I have to wait until the moment is gone.
I want to talk.
I know how difficult it is to be in a long distance relationship, to need but not to be able to fulfill the need, to have to wait, to want so much but knowing you have to wait. I send you lots of hugs and strength.
Rebel xox
I felt like that in my marriage, where I couldn’t talk either.
Maybe make a video instead of journalling? I know that sounds trite, but at least it would be a way to get your feelings across with some immediacy, even if you can’t have the interaction at the time.