Last weekend was brilliant with so many highlights that I have found it hard to focus on what I got out of it.
I have a confession to make. I was more excited about seeing the people there than going to the sessions. Luckily for me, every moment spent in the company of others was definitely worth it. There were acquaintances renewed, friendships deepened and new people met. I giggled until I ached, spent time with people I adore and even managed to fit in a lot of orgasms. It’s no wonder that I loved it.
On the way there, I managed to silence the voice in my head that was accusing me of going wrong for the ride. My Honey energy levels have been seriously depleted over the last few weeks and I had been questioning whether to continue blogging. I am glad I kept going because the weekend has re-energised Honey and given some of the doubts a thorough kicking out of the door.
The weekend also made me feel more confident in trusting myself in whichever path my creativity takes and in not blaming myself for the way I feel. To explain a bit further, I have taken a step away from my sparse attempts to write fiction. Right now, my brain isn’t wired that way. Fiction never flows easily for me as I don’t think in stories. I sometimes am inspired by a scenario but they tend to be too small a snippet to be anything more. I enjoy trying sometimes. I like challenges but writing fiction strips my confidence bare and needs a different resilience to the one I have bags of right now.
For now, my efforts are going to be more visual and practical. I loved the latex workshops, the flogger making (both courtesy of Kink Craft) and the life drawing workshops. I would have been in heaven to have spent hours and hours on those. My soul is fed by the processes of making and doing and this weekend reminded me of that.
In addition to that, I am determined to try to move beyond the instinctive with my photography. I do not know the rules, and I rarely do more than a necessary crop in my edits. Molly’s photography session was eye opening. I am so lucky and honoured that she chose two of my pictures to analyse and edit. Seeing the results, has made it make more sense to me. My ideas will still be on instinct and many of them will still have the minimum treatment before posting – time rarely allows me anything else, but when there is time, I am going to explore.
There were so many moments where the energy levels buzzed. The times small groups of us ran off to take pictures were full of fun. Trying to hold the camera still to take the pics for Exhibit A’s Sinful Sunday was quite a challenge amongst all the giggling. Trying not to jiggle while I giggled for the Boobday pictures was difficult too. Both of those experiences were a delight. In fact, cameras featured in quite a bit of my out of session fun…
I don’t know what Eroticon will become, but whatever happens, the chance to spend time in such a brilliant, creative bubble is time well spent.
Oh Honey, as usual I love every word you’ve written. I’m so glad you had a good time, and so envious of you, getting to spend time with some of my favorite twitter people, but even more envious of them getting to spend time with YOU! 🙂
I’m REALLY glad you re-thought quitting blogging. Every single post you make has relevance to me (and I’m not the only one) and either entertainment value or something to be learned, or both. And your photographs are always well-done and interesting. Thank you.
It’s fabulous that this weekend has given you some clarity. Don’t feel pressured to write fiction, but keep on writing about what you want to write about, whether it’s your art, or a story about a photo you post, because like others, I love reading your words! And your images are always hot and beautiful! Cameras featuring during sexy weekends are the best 😉
Rebel xox
Thank you for sharing about your time Eroticon, I would love to have attended, just to meet the bloggers I’ve been reading. I am more into images and writing memoirs than fiction. I’m kind of nervous about not performing well at sex, as a writer of course. I have not trouble on my mainstream blog with fiction and 100 word love flash. I envy Exhibit A and those fabulous fotos, cute. Are we going to be seeing those pasties anytime soon?
I am so glad that the weekend dismissed your thoughts about stopping blogging. That would have made me very sad if you had done that and you would have been a real loss within our community.
I am delighted my session inspired. You don’t need to know the rules of photography to take a great picture in my opinion. Sometimes it can help to know them but most great photographer just have a eye and I think you fall into that group but hopefully some of the things I mentioned will help you to hone that eye and if you ever want any help with editing etc then feel free to hit me up
mollyxxx