I’ve shared many posts over the years of this blog that let you see how much I struggle with my body image. I have a powerful combination of emotional, mental, and physical difficulties when it comes to my body.
I often protect myself from how I feel when I catch sight of myself in mirrors by only looking at focussed areas. It will be no surprise to you that I focus on tits, bum and cunt.
I challenge myself to move away from this, but it isn’t easy. However, sometimes, I have an experience that unexpectedly and dramatically shifts my mindset with the pure way that someone responds to me.
One of these experiences was when a lover, whilst we were lying on a bed together, bit my belly, looked up at me with the cutest eyes, and said it was a shark bite. Another was when a friend who was fingering me to orgasm grabbed my belly in his other hand and squeezed to make me come harder.
Both occasions were different, but the similarity of both was that they saw my whole body as beautiful and sexual. If I had asked them not to touch my belly, they would have definitely honoured that boundary. But I hadn’t, and they were, in that moment, enjoying all of me.
It’s an incredibly powerful experience when someone makes me, for a moment, see myself through their eyes, and that view doesn’t exclude parts of me in their delight in me. That moment pushes me to challenge my own difficult relationship with my body. These are people who I trust, and I agree with their views of beauty and attractiveness when looking at life, so I can not, in honesty, deny that their view of me can be valid.
I’m focusing on this today to embed this acceptance deeper into my mind in the hope that it will get as far as my soul one day.
I’ve always told you, you’re beautiful, you’re magnificent. Your body is fit for a nymph.
M. O
I love this! When my husband was my new boyfriend, I struggled with that a lot. I remember putting on a pair of pants and going, “I can’t let him see me in these.” But I did it, and he found me incredibly sexy in the pants. (They were his pants.) It was wild for me to see myself through his eyes.
PS. Your pictures is BEAUTIFUL! ❤
This is so beautiful Honey! The photo and your honest and gorgeous post. It’s something I struggle with myself, a lot lately, honestly, and your post was really inspiring. Thank you! ❤️
Beautifully and inspiringly written as ever, and a beautiful photo as well. Your body is lovely and I absolutely identify with those two friends.
You should and will believe it, Honey. xxxx