HappyComeLucky

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Fuck me deep and hard. Pull me to you and make my world shrink to just us and our bodies greedily fucking for pleasure, for lust, for everything. Fuck me because I need you to fuck me for your pleasure.

People who know me, know how important fucking is for me and how much difference it makes to my emotional well-being. One of the things that has been hard for me is managing my emotional and mental health without being able to frequently fuck.

It’s been hard ever since the end of my marriage. Fucking hits a reset button in a way that nothing else does for me. Or, I thought for years that it was the only thing. I get a hard reset from a hard beating as well even more so, if there has been an orgasm involved.

Both being fucked and being beaten needs another person to work for me. It’s no surprise that 2020 hasn’t been the best year for regular opportunities for either. I have been very lucky and had some amazing adventures that make me pause in my typing to relive in my mind. If you could hear me now, you would know just how hot those memories are from the way it makes my breathing flutter.

As well as the sensual, filthy, amazing feast of those times, 2020 has been a year of famine. I have no nesting partner and all of the restrictions mean that face to face, or junk to junk meetings have not been possible for the majority of the year. I have had to work at not letting circumstances quell my sex drive as it is a very significant aspect of me.

To keep being me, I have bombarded Twitter with videos and pictures of cheeky, sexy me. I hope they have raised at least a smile. I have also sent many many more pictures and videos to lovers and friends. I have discovered that in the absence of touch, it’s really important for me to know that I am seen.

All of this has led to me discovering some scorchingly hot, fucking fun. I love when friends and lovers share their sex lives with me. When they send me an image of them in the midst of action, a video clip that taps right into my voyeur horn, or the post orgasmic flushed grin that fills me with delight. I am so lucky that people share these things with me.

There is even more than that though. There is being part of a threesome even from a distance. Chatting and sharing with them as a couple and with each individually has become an important part of my every day. When I’m told that I am even hotter in stereo when they are both watching a video of me on their phones and can hear the sound on theirs and the other person’s too. The message from one of them describing the other’a physical reaction to something I have shared. The way I know the looks that they give each other when a filthy idea occurs. It makes my spine tingle just to write about it.

Then there are some early morning chats whilst one of them is still asleep that lead to both of us turned on and ready for everything. I end up whimpering and squirming at every message of what we could be doing and the way that their body is achingly needing release. Then there is a pause in the messages. Sometimes there is a picture, sometimes a text sometimes a video. Each time it happens, I get flooded with such an elated feeling knowing that our chat has led to two of the hottest people fucking. It’s feeling like when I’m a threesome, I’ve worshipped someone’s cock knowing and revelling in the fact that they are going to fuck the other person. In some ways, it’s even more than that because I have been welcomed into their life so much more than just for some scenes.

2020 might be the most difficult year, but it’s also been one of the best years of my life when I think about my relationships both long standing ones and new ones.

Look into my mind. Feel how much I want you and how raw my need is for you. Give in to my lust and let’s fuck!