” We should be able to time travel,” he said. “Back to an age when society was kinder to the Rubenesque woman.”
“Hmph.” I wasn’t able to say much.
“I’d love that. I love softness. Love curves. The more, the better.”
“D’you really?”
“Why wouldn’t I? Think of all the words associated with a bit of extra flesh. Generous. Ample. Voluptuous. Bountiful.”
Curvy Girls, Justin Elyot
I love this image and yet I have struggled with it at the same time. I was excited to share it and also really reluctant. It’s a beautiful image but is far away from how I am ‘meant’ to look and how my brain is still conditioned to want me to look.
I feel sensual, sexy and desirable. If I doubt that, I only have to look at the responses of partners who I have shared this image with. And they are the people who will enjoy just how amazing and wonderful I and my body are when physical contact is allowed again.
There is one more quote from the same passage in the book which sums it up:
“You’re very kind to say all this but –“
“Kind?” he burst out. “No, I’m not kind! I don’t feel sorry for you. I want you.”
I know that I am wanted and I feel it.
