I can be a contradiction of intensely private and also incredibly open. I write honestly about myself, sharing my reflections on both joyful and difficult times. I also muse about change and emotions. I censor my voice a lot of the time so posts that make it to here are the ones where I believe I have something important to share.
I plan to write more journal posts so watch this space to get to know inside my soul more.
My journal posts
- Roots September 17, 2018What are my roots? If you’d asked me this at different times, I’d have given different answers. I guess the fact that those answers change show that my roots don’t ...
- Shower me. August 20, 2018There is that moment when the temperature, flow and mood of a shower stops time just for a few breaths. Suddenly, all the demands of life quieten and my existence ...
- Holiday August 15, 2018So, I am finally here on a proper holiday in the sun. I carefully packed everything I needed and, of course, a few just-in-cases. The journey was long but the ...
- Too Tight! August 8, 2018Sometimes being too tight isn’t best. I’m not talking about for physical penetration. I’m talking about emotional penetration. I am too tight. It is so frustrating because I am open ...
- Spread those legs. July 14, 2018I’ve been thinking a lot about my body recently. Not so much about how it looks, more about how it works… or should I say doesn’t work. I’m in a lot ...
- Bikini part two July 8, 2018So, as I shared in Bikini part one, I have bought a bikini with the full encouragement of my offspring who will be on the beach with me later in ...
- Bikini part one July 6, 2018Bikini at the ready! I have a bikini. As of yesterday, I have two bikinis. Mind you, I haven’t tried the new one on yet. The whole bikini body thing is ...
- Stigma June 27, 2018I have a whole selection of health problems. I take meds for some of them. Most of them are physical health problems. Some are mental health problems. Some are mental ...
- Feeling Myself. June 1, 2018Today is a bright new day. This morning, I woke up and felt that I was me. I felt my energy and my connections. I stretched and curled my body, ...
- Why May 9, 2018Why do I blog? Over the last year, I have been undecided about what to do about blogging. I love my blog and I love the outlet that it gives ...
- I am not OK. March 19, 2018I am trying to not write this post. I am finding all the reasons why I shouldn’t and yet, here I am with the words flowing from my fingers to ...
- A gift to you and a gift to me. December 17, 2017It’s just over six years since I made a major change in my life. Until that point, despite being a very sexual person, I did not have a visual relationship ...
- Soaring in space October 24, 2017I am a submissive and I spend some of my time in a submissive headspace. I don’t always know whether the term submissive is the correct one for me. I ...
- 300! May 18, 2017This is a bit of a WOW moment for me. This is my 300th post. It’s within a few days of my fourth blogging anniversary too. I didn’t have a ...
- Organised Orgasms May 8, 2017Thirty days of orgasm fun. What could be better? Well. Maybe thirty days of someone at my beck and call for all sorts of fun… but that’s not the point ...
- Poetic Submission March 21, 2017I wrote this sonnet four years ago as a task. I didn’t know how sonnets worked and I didn’t write poetry when the task was given. I would never have ...
- My Decades February 23, 2017At the weekend, I read an article about the attitudes and experiences of women with regard to sex in different decades. I found the article annoying – not least because the section ...
- Tightly Held Assumption February 15, 2017One of the joys of my life, my experiences and the fact that I look at my life with a reflective mind is that sometimes I suddenly stumble upon, or ...
- Needed February 4, 2017Anxiety and stress don’t always make finding my balance easy. My past has made me hyper vigilant and stubbornly independent and that gets intensified even more when I am stressed. ...
- Hate! January 14, 2017This isn’t a pretty post and I should warn you, it comes with a warning that it contains themes of self-hatred. I hope that you know me as a caring, supportive, ...
- Knocked Out? January 2, 2017Happy New New Year and all that jazz. I’m almost surprised to find myself still writing and posting. 2016 was a year full of hurt which left me feeling like a ...
- Evolving Landscapes October 25, 2016It’s really important not to stop looking and to not stop seeing. Unfortunately, it is really easy to do. Things become so familiar that we stop looking at them properly. ...
- My Unbreakable Bond July 27, 2016Over twenty years ago I made a promise that is utterly beyond me to break. I sometimes think of it as a contract, but that doesn’t work because the others ...
- Jagged June 13, 2016CW abuse and long term effects I am not an easy person to be close to. I know this and I wish I could change it. I spend a lot of ...
- Pull it out June 12, 2016The current Kink of the Week is pubic hair. People who know me very well will know that I am not very disciplined one way or the other with this. ...