I can be a contradiction of intensely private and also incredibly open. I write honestly about myself, sharing my reflections on both joyful and difficult times. I also muse about change and emotions. I censor my voice a lot of the time so posts that make it to here are the ones where I believe I have something important to share.

I plan to write more journal posts so watch this space to get to know inside my soul more.


My journal posts

  • Crisp beginnings January 2, 2015
    I am writing this post while I am dosed up to the eyeballs on cold meds and feeling really rough. It isn’t the greatest start to the New Year. Surprisingly, ...
  • Christmas thoughts December 24, 2014
    Christmas has changed a lot for me over the last few years. It used to be the time that guaranteed lots of socialising, partying and the accompanying hangovers. Now, there ...
  • The Cat Who Got The Cream – or – When The Picture Provoked The Story December 12, 2014
    As visitors to my blog, you have probably noticed that the majority of my posts are picture posts. I join in the weekly Sinful Sunday meme and I enjoy ...
  • Shaved November 18, 2014
    This week’s Wicked Wednesday prompt is “Looking Back” which fits in perfectly with a very recent experience. A while ago, I bought a straight razor to use for a Sinful Sunday ...
  • Aftermath July 19, 2014
    This post follows on from Sinful Shopping. I am talking directly to my man in this piece, letting him know how I experienced the play party. I hope you enjoy ...
  • Sinful Shopping July 18, 2014
    This is a shared post with my man. The writing in italics is him. His voice in this post adds more than just my writing alone could do. For a very ...
  • A colourful bloom June 22, 2014
    Over the last couple of days, I have been coping with drop. I managed to postpone the strongest effects while I got through my week, but it didn’t dissipate, it ...
  • By His Word April 10, 2014
    When Jade asked me to contribute to Kink of the Week and to share my thoughts and experience of orgasm control, I decided to write this post. At the time ...
  • Ready to run? March 23, 2014
    A couple of weeks ago I was on a high from my gym based exercise successes and signed up for a charity run for today. It would have been a ...
  • Tied with a bow. March 16, 2014
    As a part of my post, Rewarded, I told you that I was tied with rope. Here is a glimpse of just how beautifully bound I was. The rope felt ...
  • Rewarded March 14, 2014
    This is the follow up to my post Pains and gains! I had just succeeded in earning my rewards. As my man and I are in a long distance relationship, I ...
  • Pain and gains! March 12, 2014
    If you follow me on Twitter, you will know that over the course of nine weeks, I earnt twenty seven rewards. A few people asked me what I was doing ...
  • Beat a treat! March 9, 2014
    My man and I have a new toy. He spied it in a shop quite a few weeks ago and waited until I had earnt my full set of rewards ...
  • Giggling with joy March 2, 2014
    This is a picture of me having such a good time as I am with my man. I can’t tell you exactly why I was  giggling with joy, but he ...
  • Packed for the journey. February 23, 2014
    I am just coming away from another wonderful visit to my man. This weekend I didn’t have my car, so I travelled by coach. My man had some orders for ...
  • Happiness, loss and hope. January 1, 2014
    So, it is the first day of 2014. A lot of people give me harsh looks at this time of year because January is one of my favourite times in ...
  • It’s the thought that counts. December 23, 2013
    I’m not going to see my man over the days of Christmas. It’s hard because he is the person that I most want to share experiences with. Last night, I ...
  • Playing with fear December 4, 2013
    I have had trouble finding where to start this. I don’t want to launch in to it without telling enough, but at the same time I don’t want to lose ...
  • Nipples! November 27, 2013
    I love my nipples. I like the way that they look and how they feel. I love how sensitive they are and I love the way that my body ...
  • Suspended Animation. November 18, 2013
    Everyone has their own strength and their own way of coping with all the challenges of life. I like to believe that I am strong and I can find that ...
  • Shared delight. November 9, 2013
    I adore every aspect of giving my man oral. I love to tease, taste and worship the full, silky, firm length of him. I adore wrapping my tongue around him, ...
  • A gentle touch. October 19, 2013
    I love the way that this tie looks beautiful whilst limiting what I can touch. My man tied me like this when I needed control and restraint but was too ...
  • Dark Thoughts August 14, 2013
    I have been scared of exploring the dark side of my mind. For a long time I have brushed it away, hidden it, and put on a facade of no ...
  • Control through Denial July 22, 2013
    I am a very obedient sub. I do everything that I can to obey his wishes. Even when he leaves me loopholes in his instructions I don’t exploit them. I ...
  • Tears July 2, 2013
    I have never found it easy to cry. I have had too much conditioning that crying is making a fuss or showing how weak I am. In my last relationship ...