I can be a contradiction of intensely private and also incredibly open. I write honestly about myself, sharing my reflections on both joyful and difficult times. I also muse about change and emotions. I censor my voice a lot of the time so posts that make it to here are the ones where I believe I have something important to share.
I plan to write more journal posts so watch this space to get to know inside my soul more.
My journal posts
- Sometimes I’m the unsexy needy. February 8, 2020Content note for depression, anxiety and insecurity. I am resilient, stubborn and fiercely independent. I also have serious depression and severe anxiety. I have trauma that I’ve dealt with but that ...
- Phenomenal Women January 18, 2020If you’re really lucky, you know an amazing woman. If you’re exceptionally lucky, you know more than one. I can go further than that. I am so lucky that one of ...
- Looking back and moving on. December 29, 2019End of the year and end of the decade. I have drafted this post several times and not been happy with it. Looking back on where I was a decade ...
- Touch me December 14, 2019I think I’ve always known that touch is important to me. Even as a young child, I would demand that family members would run their fingers up and down my ...
- Clothes August 24, 2019Clothes can make such a difference. They can change our mood and enhance different aspects of us. I find it fascinating that as someone who nearly always wears matching bra and ...
- Waiting August 20, 2019I’m waiting. I’ve been buzzing about this moment for days. In fact, I have been buzzing from the first moment today was suggested. I’m still buzzing. It’s not quite what ...
- Low Maintenance? August 12, 2019Low maintenance. I think that I am low maintenance. I don’t ask for much. I’m resilient. I’m independent. I’m stupidly stubborn sometimes. I naturally and happily go out of my ...
- Smile for the camera August 9, 2019Sexy. Sensual. Sexual. I recognise all of these words and will use them about me. This post is not about showing off. Sexy is the one of those that is ...
- Positively Poly August 6, 2019You will have noticed that I am a lot happier in my life nowadays. I have written here about some of it. I have had lots of thoughts to share ...
- A Brand New Vista August 3, 2019Prompt week: Get down low. As a submissive, this prompt immediately makes me think of getting down on my knees for someone. I’m sure you know me well enough to know ...
- Wonderful World. June 16, 2019I’m floating high right now. Part of that is that I’ve just got home after spending some wonderful time with someone. Part of it is more than that though. I’m ...
- After Purrs June 5, 2019Pupils dilated. Breath caught. Nipples hardening. Back arching. A tremor runs through my body making my cunt clench and an audible purr escape. The trickle of wetness pools, making me ...
- Control May 8, 2019Orgasm control. Orgasm denial. Forced orgasms. I have a thing for control and all of these come under that umbrella. I’ve been pondering about why it works for me and wondering ...
- Mindfully Me April 10, 2019The prompt for Wicked Wednesday is mental health and I have written about my bad times with mine several times including most recently here. So, for today, I am sharing ...
- Change April 8, 2019Sometimes things don’t break but they do stop working. That’s what happened to my relationship. No blame, just change. There isn’t an ‘us’ anymore. Now I need to get used to ...
- Cruel. Content warning for mental health and abusive messages. February 12, 2019“That’s what you should be like. That’s what people want. You’re so fucking ugly, it’s pathetic that you think that anyone is anything other than revolted by you.” Pretty appallingly isn’t ...
- Hopes, dreams and lustful desires. January 5, 2019I am a weird contradiction at times. I am both laid back and driven. Just thinking about writing some experience goals has made me look at myself and reflect on ...
- You like that… January 1, 2019“You like that, don’t you.” It’s not a question. It’s a statement of fact. “You’re such a perverted slut.” “What sort of a person would get off on that? Who would come from ...
- A New Year Task January 1, 2019I have given myself a task for 2019. I’m writing about it to make myself accountable. Feel free to hold me to this task and to check in on my ...
- The Art of Pleasure December 27, 2018Life is what you make of it. Or rather, you can make more of life if you’re motivated. I don’t have the most exciting life. Most of it revolves around ...
- I want you. December 24, 2018I want you! I need you! I need you here right now. I need you to need me. I need your cock to be hard and your eyes full of ...
- Fat! December 1, 2018Content Note: body image, taboo, fat. I’m pretty much always working in who I am and working at my relationship with myself. It isn’t easy. Past trauma means that I often ...
- Knock, knock! November 10, 2018This is a bit weird but this is a post to explain why I am not posting. I chose the title of this post in case anyone has been knocking to ...
- I am… October 7, 2018This is such a hard post to find the right words for. The idea is so clear in my head yet trying to capture it feels beyond me. The number ...