I can be a contradiction of intensely private and also incredibly open. I write honestly about myself, sharing my reflections on both joyful and difficult times. I also muse about change and emotions. I censor my voice a lot of the time so posts that make it to here are the ones where I believe I have something important to share.

I plan to write more journal posts so watch this space to get to know inside my soul more.


My journal posts

  • Learning to love. October 13, 2024
    I’ve shared many posts over the years of this blog that let you see how much I struggle with my body image. I have a powerful combination of emotional, mental, ...
  • Going All The Way With A Cane. September 27, 2022
    The Kink Of The Week is caning and I have an ever evolving relationship with the cane. I few years ago and I would have been tempted to desperately distract ...
  • Lost August 28, 2022
    Content warning for mental health, suicidal thoughts and struggles. I wrote about being diagnosed as bipolar earlier this year. The diagnosis felt like such a relief. I could finally understand what ...
  • Who will I be? May 13, 2022
    My life at the moment is full of certain sorts of change. It is making me feel a little lost. For most of my adult life, I have had a ...
  • An Intimate Shave November 13, 2021
    Some times everything collides to make an already hot experience even hotter. In this case it was the addition of an audience to an already powerful idea. In 2020, I shaved ...
  • An Intimate Shave November 13, 2021
    Some times everything collides to make an already hot experience even hotter. In this case it was the addition of an audience to an already powerful idea. In 2020, I shaved ...
  • What’s in a number? Part 2 November 6, 2021
    This is the second post in a pair. The first can be found here.   By the time Honey arrived at our house, a vision in PVC and fishnets, my stomach was ...
  • What’s in a number? November 6, 2021
    This is the first in a pair of posts written about the same events. This one is my point of view. You can find Euclidean Point‘s in the next post. A ...
  • I am such a sucker for cock. June 7, 2021
    “A good blow job is fucking art. It’s like playing jazz piano blindfolded for an audience you’re desperate to please. It’s improvisation and communication and skill and practise and a ...
  • COVID nearly killed me. March 10, 2021
    CW: Mental health, suicidal ideation, PTSD Covid nearly killed me and I am still not confident that I will recover. Except, that I have been very lucky and I haven’t contracted the ...
  • End of year shake down: 2020 December 31, 2020
    As everybody is saying, this has been such a year. I’ve had many conversations about how at this time last year, I couldn’t have imagined the way this year would ...
  • Shhh… November 11, 2020
    “An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind…” Mahatma Gandhi Sometimes it feels as though most of my life involves persuading people to take this quote ...
  • Greedy Sluts Club September 26, 2020
    I love the name of this post. I am tempted to get a t shirt and a pin badge made with this on. Maybe if I can think of the ...
  • Wake up with me. September 23, 2020
    There’s that moment as you start to wake up, before you even realise that you are, when you realise with a glow that fills you that you aren’t alone in ...
  • Fantasies, facts and fictions. September 19, 2020
    Fantasy, desires, ideas and memories. Sometimes it’s clear which one of those I am thinking about. Sometimes it’s a mixture of them all. I used to run a small number ...
  • So many things to unlearn September 8, 2020
    “So many things to unlearn” The Other Me Content note: contains references to abuse. That quote from The Other Me is a powerful one. We all have things that we have learnt over ...
  • 140 Days August 31, 2020
    “But feelings can’t be ignored, no matter how unjust or ungrateful they seem.” Anne Frank 140 days. I have 140 days until a landmark birthday. In so many ways, I am very ...
  • Grieving for a different me. July 17, 2020
    Content warning: contains references to abuse and the long term effects of it. I was scrolling twitter and saw a tweet asking people to retweet with their six words or less ...
  • Fear and Trust July 7, 2020
    “Right on the edge of fear was where trust could grow.” Cherise Sinclair Fear is such an interesting emotion for me. My knee jerk, socially conditioned response is that fear is bad ...
  • AFAB July 1, 2020
    For anyone who isn’t sure, AFAB stands for Assigned Female At Birth. I am AFAB and two of my children are AFAB. I’m going to talk here about one of ...
  • My Pride – the update. June 24, 2020
    I posted My Pride a couple of weeks ago. I had thought a great deal about what to write before that. I thought I had done my reflecting and, for ...
  • My Pride June 14, 2020
    It’s Pride Month and that is really important to me. This year, instead of the normal events and face to face activities, my Pride is looking very different. The externally visible ...
  • Meet me and greet me. March 3, 2020
    I’m Honey and my twitter is @ht_honey 3 things that I am most looking forward to at Eroticon 2020. Catching up with people and meeting new people. I wasn’t able to attend ...
  • Mine February 21, 2020
    He is mine. I am his. We switch. Our dynamic is amazing and fluid. I’m Domme, and, I am held down and beaten. There is a greed and desperation for ...